i want to draw today
I want to draw today.
This might just be my hypomanic cycle but I'm going to make use of it as much as I can. This time last year, I was running myself to the ground trying to handle everything, most of those things weren't even about me.
It's strange being so free to make whatever I want now. No art store to tend, no conflict-avoidants who held back their tongue until they exploded inside an argument, no endless attempts to manage other people's feelings when someone's feeling insecure, no more agreeing on projects I didn't have interest on, no more making myself small.
In this space of time I am just me. And when I picture myself, I am half-hunching in my desk, smiling, pen in hand.